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Begging Her Graces: 20th Anniversary Edition (remastered)

by pat mAcdonald

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    Recorded 20 years ago (1999) in Barcelona, produced by John Parish (PJ Harvey, Eels, Giant Sand), this Anniversary reissue is fully remastered and includes a fresh remix of the song that inspired my novel, "Space Kitty Blues." Comes in a 4-panel Eco-Wallet

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  • my novel, set in Barcelona around the turn of the millennium.

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1.
There she stands by the door Eyes all red, hair all tangled In a little house, in a big ole town Tiny man in her hands I don't wanna drown I don't wanna wither and fade I don't wanna live my life In a whiskey bottle She drinks to my weakness As well as my health Says I don't like drinkin' all by myself Tells me i'm wise Tells me I'm strong Says you're the best on my top shelf I don't wanna drown I don't wanna wither and fade I don't wanna live my life In a whiskey bottle I'm no god, at least not yet Some things I can't forgive Still I try, still I climb back inside one more time I don't wanna drown I don't wanna wither and fade I don't wanna live my life In a whiskey bottle
2.
I'd clean up my body clear up my head become a vegan, child even give up bread just to feast on your words as they roll off your tongue i'd give the rest of my senses and keep only one just to hear that sweet sound comin through I'd do about anything just to talk to you if i was a monkey i'd beat a hollow log with a bone if i was a cave man i'd invent the telephone i'd go to bed at midnight mind all my p's and q's get up early in the mornin' walk a mile in high heeled shoes i'd build a sailin ship sail across the ocean blue i'd learn a whole new language just to talk to you just to talk to you i wanna take you out buy you lunch give you everything if i were nothin floatin in a sea of nothin thinkin bout nothin in particular doin nothin spectacular feelin nothin much except for maybe a touch of restlessness and loneliness there'd be nothin stoppin me nothin i couldn't do i'd become god and create the universe just to talk to you just to talk to you i wanna take you out buy you lunch give you everything just to talk to you just to talk to you just to talk to you just to talk to you
3.
Every night, you spread your wings all your joy and suffering Every night, you lay love down Never quite enough to go round Oh my, little darlin Oh my little dark angel Demon child, your sorcery is bound to be the death of me Eyes of fire, lips like wine You can have my soul anytime Oh my, little darlin Oh my little dark angel You're a drug, you're a drain More addictive than cocaine but i love you and i love me i only hate this dependency Oh my, little darlin Oh my little dark angel... Oh my, little darlin Oh my little dark angel
4.
A back page thriller started out filler Broke like the conscience of a serial killer Slayed every slueth tryin to track down the truth as frustration found opportunists all around who were willin to sell but unable to tell til the bell of the ball tolled for us all Kiss and tell Southern bell a dead ringer a real hum dinger A quarter past fiine, the carnival was cooking the main course was divine and so good looking someone musta put somethin in the governor's drink He turned red, clutched his stomache went runnin for the sink A contemporary knight of the round table thought he was Clark Gable in bed with Betty Grabel The feds were on his back but he swore on a stack though she cracked his code of armor he'd never harm her. She just laughed and fired another round It made contact with a resonant sound Ricocheted once, ricocheted twice Caught the chief investigator right between the eyes Chime your light One more night One tin soldier A steel magnolia Do you remember what your mama told ya? She said, "once your face is public property, there's no place to hide It's either tele-cruci-fiction or tele-suidice You're born to suffer on the cross of your sexuality to fuck the devil so we may be sex free. Be the bell of the ball Toll for us all Be just like Jesus Christ a dead ringer dead ringer dead ringer a real hum dinger For anyone who' ever testified amateur or pro anyone who's blown the whistle on friend or foe every tongue waggin fool who's ever flashed pink every pigeon on a stool every dirty rat fink For snitches and tattlers, great and small The bell of the ball tolled for us all Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong ding Ding dong ding dong ding dong ding dong ding
5.
Drawn and quartered Spread out on the street I was ordered to forfeit my seat Forty lashes for the quality i lack The last rejection hit me harder than a heart attack Now i'm just here killin time, stayin cool, keepin calm like a walkin time bomb Got my gun i'm ready to stage a one-man revolution Start a war, strike a blow against the tyranny of beauty Sensuality was the only place to go Young and beautiful was the star of my show - Now it's Back to reality time to rise up Struggle is the one thing i know Got my gun i'm ready to stage a one-man revolution start a war, strike a blow against the tyranny of beauty Bring about a new age of love and appreciation and power for the ones a bit ugly and strange like me Everybody rise up right now against the tyranny of beauty
6.
THEY LOVE YOU WHEN YOU'RE FUNNY BABE THEY LOVE YOU WHEN YOU'RE DRUNK AND BLIND THEY LOVE YOU WHEN YOU'RE CRAZY ALL THE BETTER TO FUCK WITH YOUR MIND BUT THEY HATE YOU WHEN YOU COME DOWN AND YOU SEE THEM IN A CLEARER LIGHT THEY HATE YOU WHEN YOU'RE SOBER WHEN THE FUN IS DONE, YOU GOTTA RUN, THE PARTY'S OVER LIFE COULD BE SO EASY BABY WHY DO YOU TAKE IT ON YOURSELF TO WELCOME IN THE UNINVITED WHEN THEY ONLY DRAG YOU DOWN? DRAG YOU DOWN THEY LOVE YOU WHEN YOU STUMBLE DARLIN THEY ADORE YOU WHEN YOU FALL BUT THEY HATE YOU WHEN YOU WALK AWAY WHEN YOU KNOW YOU HAD A CLOSE CALL LIFE COULD BE SO EASY BABY WHY DO YOU TAKE IT ON YOURSELF TO WELCOME IN THE UNINVITED WHEN THEY ONLY DRAG YOU DOWN? DRAG YOU DOWN THEY MAKE YOU WANT TO CLOSE YOUR EYES MAKE YOU WANT TO BLACK THE SUN MAKE YOU WANT TO RUN AND HIDE MAKE YOU WANT TO BUY A GUN SILENCE IS YOUR FRIEND SILENCE IS YOUR FRIEND SILENCE IS YOUR FRIEND SILENCE IS YOUR FRIEND
7.
No one here's been bruised or burned Nothing's changed as far as i'm concerned You don't have to lie Just say nothing - nothing happened Back me up should someone ask Nothing said is nothing bad I've got more to lose than you ever had If you are my friend, you'll say nothing Nothing happened Back me up should someone ask No one here's been bruised or burned Nothing's changed as far as i'm concerned You don't have to lie Just say nothing - nothing happened Back me up should someone ask...
8.
Love me at a distance Love me from afar I'll love you forever wherever you are Love me at a distance Though i can't be there It's nice having someone in the world somewhere I'm wishing you everything money, love, and fun a girlfriend, a boyfriend though i'm not the one Potential disappointment is a bird in the hand who'll say what you wanna hear Sing anything on demand I'd rather be your long lost secret love This mystery fits me like a glove Love the idea of me Love the idea of me I offer no resistance No strain upon your strength Love me at a distance I'll love you at length Love me like a planet cold and so far gone Call me from Indiana Play me like a song Call me your long lost secret love This mystery fits me like a glove Love the idea of me Love the idea of me Love the idea of me Love the idea of me Love the idea of me Love the idea of me Love the idea of me And fuck the reality Love me at a distance Love me from afar I'll love you forever Wherever you are Love me at a distance Though i can't be there It's nice having someone in the world somewhere in the world somewhere in the world somewhere
9.
Severine 04:29
Severine i'll bet you're gonna hate this song You'll think it's all about your name and that's been done And though it's true that the rest of you holds a certain fascination i admit i find it hard to resist a little twist in the pronunciation. Severine, bet you think this is just for the sake of rhyme. Were you so cynical at seventeen, Severine? On the surface, your songs are stains choker chains, dragons and flames On the surface your purpose seems to be to tell the world "fuck off" and take the piss out of me. But somehow i can't help thinkin that down inside, down inside way down inside there's a sweet little thing And she just wants to sing about sunshine Sing about love that's true Sing about red balloons in a sky of blue. Severine girl, you were bad the other night maybe not as bad as you wanted to be but you did alright Everybody stopped sippin champaign when you got up and sang in nothin but your chains - and a boa made from the feathers of a vulture and your butt tattooed with the words "FUCK CULTURE" Still somehow, somethin tells me that down inside, down inside way down inside there's a sweet little thing And she just wants to sing like an angel High up in a sky of blue Somethin sad and beautiful like a dream that comes true And it wasn't done in Hollywood I know because i've seen it too It was somethin bout some crazy love Somethin bout a crazy love Somethin bout a red balloon in a sky of blue. Oh Severine, do you hate my song? Was i right about you - or was i just too far gone? Oh Severine, am i connecting with anything vaguely true or am i just projecting my own trip on you?
10.
TOUGHER THAN A BAKELITE PLATTER, COOLER THAN A MINUS DEGREE, STUBBORN AND SLEEK LIKE A FELINE CYBORG UP IN A TREE, MAN I WANNA GET IT. HOW AM I GONNA GET IT DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, GET IT DOWN, GET IT DOWN? A SIREN SONG VENUS FLYTRAP, TEXTURE LIKE MARTIAN WAX, MICRO-FINE GROOVES ON THE A-SIDE, TINY SOFT SPIKES ON THE BACK - MAN I WANNA PET IT. HOW AM I GONNA GET IT DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, GET IT DOWN, GET IT DOWN? SOMEONE CALL THE FIRE DEPARTMENT. GET EM OUT HERE ON THE LAWN. JUST A LITTLE WATER PRESSURE, FRESH FRUIT FALLS TO THE GROUND. MAN I WANNA GET IT. HOW AM I GONNA GET IT DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, GET IT DOWN, GET IT DOWN? THE FIRE CHIEF AND SOME NEW FLAME ARE CAMPIN OUT IN MY BACK YARD, SAYS YOUR KITTY CASH IS GARBAGE, SAYS HE'LL TAKE A PLASTIC CARD BUT I GOT NO CREDIT HOW AM I GONNA GET IT DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, GET IT DOWN, GET IT DOWN? NOW SOMETIMES IT MOVES LIKE A FIRE OR A LION RUNNIN FREE. SOMETIMES WHEN IT'S HUNGRY, I CALL IT AND IT COMES TO ME, BUT I ALREADY FED IT. HOW AM I GONNA GET IT DOWN, DOWN, DOWN, GET IT DOWN, GET IT DOWN?
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12.
SAME OL' SAME OL' SAME OL' THING SAME OL' SAME OL' SAME OL' THING SAME OL' SAME OL' SAME OL' THING AND THE SAME OL' SAME OL' THING AGAIN SAME OL' SEDUCTION SAME OL' FLING SAME OL' PROMISE SAME OLD RING SAME OL' CYNICAL SONG I SING IT'S THE SAME OL' SAME OL' THING AGAIN SAME OLD WINTER SAME OLD SPRING SAME COLD CASTLE WE'RE DEFENDING SAME OLD SAD TALE SAME AMBIGUOUS ENDING LA MISMA LA MISMA LA MISMA COSA LA MISMA LA MISMA LA MISMA COSA LA MISMA LA MISMA LA MISMA COSA Y LA MISMA COSA OTRA VES IT'S THE SAME OL' SAME OL' SAME OLD THING AGAIN LAST LONG SLOW RIDE NO MORE BLOOD SHED YOUR RAINCOAT AND LIE DOWN IN THE SUNLIGHT I WANNA GIVE YOU ONE KISS TO LAST YOU FOREVER LAST LONG SLOW RIDE OUT OF TIME THROW YOUR WINE GLASS AND MY HEART INTO THE FIRE I WANNA DANCE TO A SLOW SONG AND DIE IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT DANCE OUR GOODBYES AS MY SOUL FLIES INTO THE LIGHT HEAR LIFE'S SERENADE DO A SLOW FADE AND DIE IN YOUR ARMS TONIGHT

about

In the spring of 1997, I was at Miles Copeland’s castle in France with about 30 other songwriters invited for a week of co-writing. Groups were assigned by the castle powers-that-be, and I was set up with this guy John Parish on the first day. He was playing some kind of toy instrument, but the sound – or his way of playing – seriously connected with me. Ahhhhh, he was that John Parish, the one who worked with PJ Harvey. I’d been a big fan – of “Polly” (he called her Polly) and of him as a player. His sound was at the core of hers, and of mine at the time – it played in a loop around my gravitational center. To suddenly be in a room with him for the purpose of writing a song was an unarticulated dream come true. // Cut to Spain, Benecassim ’98. John was there, playing with PJ Harvey. That was the night he offered to produce my album. We booked a couple local gigs (he on drums) so he could learn the tunes. // The studio in Barcelona was class A – in my memory, the engineers wore lab coats (though I doubt they did). Each day, I’d lay down some solo tracks until dinnertime. Before I arrived by train the next day, John had added his multi-instrumental brilliance to the previous day’s work. Some guys in my local band (I was living in Barcelona) sat in on a couple of tunes. A popular Catalan singer sang some backup. Some friends from the states flew over to join us. It was fun – and expensive! - Thanks, Ulftone, for footing the bill!!! Some of my best songs got recorded. Begging Her Graces enabled some touring in Europe, but the album was never released in the U.S. Until now. ☺

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released March 23, 2019

Produced by John Parish; recorded at Bit a Beat Studio, Barcelona May/June 1999; engineers: Ferran Conangla & Robert Ballester; executive producer, Ulf Zick; Spanish representation: Alberto Manzano; videography, design, art by Carlos Grasso; "Skeleton Man" art by Bill MacDonald.

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pat mAcdonald Sturgeon Bay, Wisconsin

From my bedroom to barrooms to Timbuk3, to exile in Spain with an album in the can & no plan, I was always chasing increasingly trivial triumphs & glorious failures. A midlife German label deal enabled European tours from home base in Barcelona. From Legendary Sons of Crack Daniels to Purgatory Hill &back, i now live and work projex out of the Holiday Music Motel in Sturgeon Bay, Wisconsin. ... more

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